immersed in sound..

music definitely has its way of taking you to another world.. if it weren’t for music, i would probably depressed again right now.. been drowning myself in it since 10 pm and i’m not feeling as sad as i was in the past few days..  the most effective kind of music to listen to for me are those that i can directly relate to.. you know those songs that seem like they were written especially for you? the one that tell exactly how you feel.. i guess it’s nice to know that you’re not the only one going through these kinds of situations.. music is definitely a way for people to realize that they aren’t alone..

experiences are definitely made to be shared, that each of us could learn from each other, and not commit the same mistakes others have, and avoid hurts that others have..

i guess i’ve been feeling relatively better today.. except for this morning in class, when i broke into tears so obviously that i had to pretend that i had a headache.. embarassing how tears suddenly just kept rolling down my face.. after that, spent most of my time alone… staring blankly into space and thinking about things… i think that’s what i need… time to think about things.. and considering that i tend to think too much, i’m going to need a lot of time to think things over.. but when i’m thinking, i don’t like talking much.. i guess these past few days have been the quietest since… i find myself talking with myself in my mind… some have been asking me what’s wrong, saying i haven’t been myself, some having found out about my little stunt the other night.. but don’t worry, i’ll be fine.. i really just need to think.. sorry if i haven’t had the “gusto” to talk with anyone lately.. don’t take it against yourself.. “it’s not you, it’s me”

i have 7 years to think about..

i was telling my friend last night how when i was a kid, i used to copy other people’s handwriting.. i think i was in 3rd grade when i started copying one of my friends’ handwriting.. after a year, i grew tired of it, so i looked for another one to copy.. the next year, i did the same. And the year after that.. when i got to highschool, i grew tired of copying others’ handwriting and reverted to my own.. then i realized i lost my handwriting.. what resulted was a really ugly, and barely legible handwriting.. until now, i don’t have a decent hand writing to show, which is why i always opt to type things up when i can.. rather than handwrite things…

somehow that’s how i feel about my life.. Aimee… or maybe that’s just what i want you to believe, but in reality, I’m really not..

Heather Headley

Thanks to yahoo launchcast, i’ve discovered a new artist whose songs i really like.. must buy the albums! Really cool songs.. Neo Soul.. 😉

if only

back during the break, i remember watching the movie “if only”. i never got to watch it on the big screen because of the hectic schedule. when i went home to cagayan, i saw a dvd (yes it was pirated, sue me :p) and watched it. i cried my eyes out. then again, i’m a pretty emotional person so crying over a movie isn’t something new or out of the ordinary. but i really did like the story. but it makes me wonder whethere there really still are guys like that. I mean, yes, he was an ass at first, but he really did make up for it in the end. too bad they had just a day left to be together. cool concept though, although it’s frustrating not to get the happily ever after endings that we know and love, but it keeps the story grounded, it keeps the viewers grounded, that life can never always be happily ever after, but despite that, things will still go on, and the credits will always eventually roll.

but i really loved the story.. makes me think about myself, what i’d want to do if i had a day left in my life to do all the things i’ve ever wanted. of course in my case i have to remove the idea of having someone to help me out with it. :p let me see.. i’ve always also wanted to make my own song and sing it in front of people. but i’ve stopped writing a long time ago. one of my frustrations.. i just never did find any of my work good enough. maybe i just lack inspiration. naks!! hehe nah.. too hard to make a personal example, i can’t relate with the situation! but i guess if i did have a ‘significant other’ i’d want to experience the things he loved doing that i never really fully appreciated or enjoyed. i’ve been with me all my life, and i’ve already experienced me. guess i wanna sort of experience his life, the way he enjoys it, even just for a day.. also so he’d remember me along with his happy moments. corny? yuck.. indeed..

and others

The acoustic jammin was okay.. even if I missed 2 lines of the song.. can’t really blame me, we only practiced this song this week and we didn’t have a decent source of lyrics.. Try googlin’ for the lyrics of Manila girl and you won’t find any! Okay, for the benefit of those who will be singin it in the future, I’ll post our transcribed lyrics.. 🙂 I’’m sure there are parts that are wrong, I welcome corrections. Here is what I sang:

Flashin like lightning, I can’t believe it

My eyes won’t fail me coz I’m not loaded

Time rolled swiftly as I keep rock and rollin

I get to open my eyes on a bright modern girl

Manila girl, manila girl

Manila girl, manila girl

No wall’s gonna block you no road is gonna stop you

Your beat is movin’ steady, I dare you follow me

I followed all rainbows it took me all directions

I found me no gold but those pearls don’t go

Wind keeps em twitchin, engines keep em rollin’

Sideways front ways, what’s your name anyway

As u can see, it doesn’t make sense… either we transcribed wrong or the song really just doesn’t make sense. :p anyway… it was a cool experience.. I felt less scared on stage this time.. still there was a tremble in my voice..

Anyway, that’s what I did last night.. this morning I woke up early and at lunch time I went to Mattie’s to have lunch with my officemates. It’s a small eating place near our office at Matalino st. UP village. I got to eat 4 and a half rice and sinigang for free! 😉 the owner challenged me that if I could eat 5 rice, he’d give me a free meal.. and he was true to his word! But seriously, those living near the area should really check it out.. it’s unlimited rice, free iced tea (and occasionally juice or gulaman) and soup! All this for 40 pesos! Now that’s amazing.. we’ve been eatin there ever since one of our office mates mentioned it.. anyway.. I’m a bit sleepy so…zzzzz…

Cheese,

Aimee

It’s bliss…

Your touch is electric
I felt it the first time you held me
The way we connected
So easily
I’ve tried to define it
Searched for the perfect phrase
I’ve tried to describe it
In a million different ways

It’s joy, it’s ecstasy, it’s truth it’s destiny
And even love is not enough
To tell you how you make me feel
There’s only one word for this

I’ve got to admit it
You took my heart by surprise
Don’t know how you did it
But baby, I’ve never felt so alive
I already know what the future holds
As long as you are here with me

It’s joy, it’s ecstasy, it’s truth, it’s destiny
To tell you how you make me feel
It’s faith, it’s honesty, it’s life, it’s everything
To say I love you is not enough
To tell you how you make me feel
It’s in your smile, it’s in you kiss
It’s the reason I exist
There’s only one word for this
It’s bliss