woke up late? slept early? not really sure…

when i got home last night, at about 1.30, i wasn’t able to sleep right away.. some friends were coming over and we hung out a bit so we were awake till about 6.30am.. i didn’t plan on sleeping anymore but since it was too early to go to seattle’s (hehe), i decided to nap a bit along with everyone else. I was planning to leave the house by 9 but i guess i was enjoying the sleep so much i woke at about 10… and jael had to leave early so i had to wait till she was done getting ready.. i was also feeling a bit lazy.. but while she was in the bathroom (and everyone else left already) i decided to rearrange the room and clean up a bit.. aidz suggested a different layout earlier that morning and i was curious at how it looked.. now it’s a bit weird, or maybe i’m just not used to the space that repositioning the bed made. anyway, by the time i was done cleaning up, jael had left.. it was already 1pm when i started getting ready to leave. got a lot of things to do today.. raket stuff and thesis stuff. better start getting to work.. geezz it’s so late in the day!! i wonder if i’ll be able to get things done.. hmmm..

block a mobile number

The people in the local telecommunication business should start developing means to block messages from abusive/offensive users. it’s a mode of communication that’s as easy as instant messaging and considering that some networks provide means for unlimited texting, all the more reason. why on earth haven’t any of the networks thought of this yet? i’ve read that foreign telecoms like Sprint have already implemented something that allows their users to do so. considering that we claim to be the texting capital of the world it’s odd that nobody’s ever come up with that service yet.
to the attention hungry people who send offensive text messages to others, invest your time on exercising your brain in other things, rather than bothering other people with your nonsense. it’s just so childish. if my brain was underdeveloped, i wouldn’t be doing stuff that could deliberately make that fact evident to others. sheesh.

it’s all in the pod..

i was running out of disk space so i had to move some of my stuff to my 20gb ipod (no it’s not the video).  i didn’t realize i had so many pictures.. the move gave me an additional 3GB! i just hope it doesn’t crash…the original Shell had all my installers on it (yes pirated stuff) when it crashed while i was at Sagada.. when i tried to turn it on, all it showed me was a sad face X_X i didn’t even try to remember what else i had stored in her cause i knew i’d only feel bad.. of course it was still under warranty so i got her replaced… all my pics are now in her so i really hope she doesn’t crash before i get to burn these pictures on a dvd. just haven’t had time to go buy blanks yet.. gotta put that on my things to do.. hmmm..

tears in heaven?

turns out, we didn’t have class at our 10 am class today so i’m extending my stay here at seattle’s.. it’s raining..

i remember as a child i always thought God was crying everytime it rained.. if a tear fell for every bad thing, bad deed, bad word that came out of this world, another flood would have enveloped the earth. maybe since He promised that would never happen, he’s crying in installment…

rain has always been synonymous to sadness for me.. after a weekend of contemplating on the other aspects of my life, i realize now that i’ve been on an emotional roller coaster for almost 8 years.. not once was i stable.. i only felt i was but judging at how temporary everything was, i guess i wasn’t.. even in the longest “relationship” that i had, i wasn’t really… what’s a good word.. contented?

no question about it, i got lots of lessons, though i never seemed to learn from them.. i would like to think that i don’t have any regrets in life.. but so much wrong has happened that my life has turned into one big chunk of regret.. yes, experience is the best teacher but with a hard headed student like me, i should have dropped out of school after the first lesson cause after several takes i still couldn’t get it! in summary, i’d describe myself as a person with a (fairly) smart brain, and a stupid heart…i certainly know how to get myself into messy situations… sometimes digging my own grave, and sometimes making a building for myself to jump off from..

things are not always what they seem to be on the outside.. that’s definitely true..

morning coffee…

at seattle’s to get my dose of caffeine today.. kahit namumulubi na, kelangan pa rin ng kape (i wonder bat di nalang mag 3 in 1 ano?).. the weekend, i spent it with my brain turned off.. my academic brain that is… i thought of the other aspects of my life, and realized that i need a major revamp.. things have been getting too busy that i haven’t had the time for my personal life… i didn’t notice that i’ve been rotting already… i’ll try to keep my weekends free so i’d have time for my self, though i doubt that since there are just so many things to do.. maybe i should do a double shift on the weekdays… i’ll figure that out… it’s back to acad & work mode….

measure in his name…

i thought i didn’t feel for him anymore
back then i seemed to get over him so easily
but when i saw him with her, i felt it
the pain i didn’t know was there ever since
what was buried deep under, far from reach,
has now surfaced, and become so real to me
That’s when i stopped and wondered
if she sees what i see
if she feels what i do when i run to him
in times of my tears and drama
when he’d simply put
his loving arms around me
but i guess it couldn’t be forever
so, for now it’s back to all my tears and drama

Java Studio Creator. etc.

poor oyster is having a hard time picking up the pace… the “Starting modules…” splash screen stays on for about 2 minutes on my oyster.. then again, this is run side by side with an instance of visual studio and enterprise manager, should that make a difference? :p but once i got to the application, i was impressed with the ‘clean’ appearance.. i guess in this case, i’d look over the fact that it’s immensely slow.. just finished my projects though and the ones i’m working on, i’m doing in vs 2005 so i wont be able to try it out for now..

gotta clean up my hard drive though, running out of space.. i’ve got 8 gig of music which i also have on my ipod.. but i’m scared that my ipod might crash again that’s why i’m not erasing it from my drive for now.. i’ll probably go buy myself a some blank dvds so i can burn them all.. (nyehehe pirate…)

when i’m tired i blog..

when i’m sleepy i blog..

weird thing going on with our vs studios here at the lab.. there was one time earlier when we all could type in the source code editor but we couldn’t delete or even navigate through the page.. for some of us it was easily remedied by restarting the program, but for some, even restarting the pc didn’t stop the problem from recurring..weird..

just finished downloading the sun java studio creator..  wonderin whether this is gonna be as heavy as net beans.. never really liked netbeans.. still an edit loyalist when it comes to java.. hehe :p yes.. i’m on windows.. at least it’s not a pirated version! thanks to the MSDNAA with UP Diliman  hehe

life’s like that?

there are times when you know you’re not on the right track, but you refuse to get on the right one because you sometimes think that you’re entitled to do something wrong once in a while. Well sometimes, you just get in way over your head, and before you know it, it’s too late to turn back. one thing’s for sure, mistakes are there for a reason, for you to learn from them, and not to commit them over and over again.

finally!

the day’s over.. again, buzzer beater submissions.. i should quit this cramming thing.. it’s so not healthy.. anyway, back to normal? not yet.. still have 199 modules to finish.. must get to work..

i refuse to post my insights for the day. but i do have lots. maybe in the future.. grrr.. life is such a pain in the backside. but despite everything, we all must move on.. forget about it already.. and take on other opportunities. life is too short to dwell on things that just cant be. well what do you know, insights still pour out.. :p